What is PMDD?
PMDD full name Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder is a condition in which five to ten days before menstruation a woman experiences severe PMS symptoms that include depression, irritability, insomnia, fatigue, tension, brain fog, and lack of focus. In most cases, the symptoms subside once menstruation begins or shortly thereafter. The condition’s symptoms persist every month a woman is in her reproductive age.
Emotionally I feel empty! The hardest thing for me is the sadness that consumes me, it takes every happy feeling I have and dumps it right out. The joy I get from my children is gone and it is replaced with impatience. Every little thing makes me lose it, I yell at the slightest mishap my children or husband make. I love them but in those days I don’t feel love. I feel nothing but distress for feeling so empty and angry for being so short with my kids and husband.
I want to lay on my couch and watch mindless TV while sinking into the cushions. Exercise does not happen on those days as I am so fatigued that the thought of getting up and moving gives me anxiety. On those days I get severe insomnia and as it gets closer to getting my menstruation the less I sleep. Additionally, I binge on food! I eat everything I can. It is a vicious cycle because when I am not on my PMDD days I try to eat healthily and to keep an exercise routine. The binges cause me to sabotage any progress I’ve made, which in turn causes me to plunge to extreme guilt that leads me further to a depression.
I literally feel like I am going to go insane. It pisses me off that for ten days out of the month it takes my life away. I want to snap out of my funk but PMDD won’t let me. So I wait, I sit knowing it’s temporary.
What the world says
PMDD, can’t be escaped, it may be less intense sometimes, but it never leaves. After three babies my body betrayed me with a condition barely anyone has heard about. The medical profession does not want to acknowledge it, to them is as it is a hysterical woman problem. When I mentioned it to my family and friends they just say “Oh Yeah your period !” Reducing it to nothing more than an everyday condition that merits no additional care.
How I cope!
Since the world does not get it and the medical doctor don’t either, I took it into my own hands and researched it. I found one psychiatrist that would treat me and a ton of natural ways to help. I also found a community on Twitter that helped me cope, they support me, they understand me, and when I am not myself they don’t judge me. In this post, I won’t be detailing what I take medically or any treatment resources. Here I just want for my community to know who I am, I want for that one woman out there that feels like I do, to know she is not alone.
My biggest support has been the women who share the same affliction on twitter. I have provided their twitter names so if you need support, you can find it on twitter.Twitter Accounts: @MEvPMDD, @thewombproject2, @viciouscyclepmd, @GiaAllemandFDN, @itsnotjustpms, @PMDDHelper, @PMDDandME
I am also here for you, you can contact me at any time. This post is short because I am currently in my PMDD days. I needed to express it because I know in my heart someone out there may be looking for a lifeline. I am here, contact me! Comment Below and I will respond or find me on Facebook here, Twitter here!
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